About a month or so ago, I was in Best Buy returning something, and the girl behind the counter mentioned that she'd seen me in there all the time. Back when she said that I didn't think much of it, but since then i've been thinking, "does that mean she might be interested in me?"

Unfortunately, like most guys i'm terrible at picking up on hints like that until it's way too late. So, am I right, or just delusional?

Well, it's been a week sine my announcement, and things (obviously) haven't changed all that much. I do feel a lot more free about what I find sexually attractive, I don't feel like I have to look at what I normally look at behind people's backs anymore, which is a great feeling. I'm not going to be shoving it in people's faces or anything, but it's nice to know I don't have to hide it. All the friends I know from online that I told about it have been very supportive, save one…but I don't hold a grudge or anything…

Well…this has been a bit of a hard decision for me, but lately i've been thinking more and more about actually going through with this, and I think its time I admit this both to you all, and to myself.

I'm bisexual.

Now, maybe I should clarify things a bit. I am sexually attracted to women, but not men so much. I mean, I find men attractive, i'm not that paranoid about my sexuality, but there aren't any men that i'd want to fuck, if that makes any sense. For years i've been fascinated with shemales, and have dreamt of…

Well, I’m writing this from somewhere over Oregon, I presume, on my way to Seattle to visit Dana for a day. Today has been such a long day, waking up at 7AM and catching two flights late at night isn’t a good idea, for anyone that’s considering doing it. But if you’re still set on it, get plenty of rest the night before. Last night Jeremy was over, and we were gonna go get inked. We made our way down to the tattoo place (HB Tattoo for those who are wondering), and I talked to one of the artist there.…

Looks like i'll be ringing in the new year with the members of the most brutal metal band in the world, Dethklok! \m/

So, everyone on the East coast is now in 2007, while we over here on the West are stuck in 2006 for another two and a half hours. Isn't that fascinating? -_-

Anyway…i'm just sitting here alone. Not going out to get drunk (like I would get drunk anyway) , or to any parties or anything. Just gonna be at home like any other night, most likely i'll just go to bed without even realizing that its midnight. It's just another night….there's no real reason to get excited about anything. I mean, if I were out at a party or…

This song is a pretty good representation of what Christmas time is like to me. Now, don't get me wrong…I still love Christmas itself, but the longer I work at FedEx, the more I grow to hate the weeks leading up to Christmas. Makes me very Grinch-like…although I do enjoy buying presents for friends and family though. :) Anyway….lyrics for you!!

(Deck the halls with boughs of holly fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la)
(Tis the season to be jolly fa-la-la-la-la-la-la-la-la)

Outside the carolers start to sing
I can't describe the joy they bring
Cause joy is something they don't bring me

My girlfriend is…

God damn, almost 3 months since i've written in this thing last. I've really neglected it, haven't I? Even though I don't have regular readers or any shit like that, i'm gonna apologize anyway, like it or not. Anyway, to the meat of this update.

I've mentioned Ewa's friend Anh a few times here and there, and I finally asked her out this morning, and we're going to go get dinner Sunday night. Nothing fancy. I don't even really know where we're going to go or anything like that, but i've got time to think about it. I just hope…

One good thing about summer winding down is that the temperatures as well are on their way down. I'm not quite ready for winter temperatures yet, but fall sounds really nice. It's been in the mid 70s down here all week, and its been nice. I think the high yesterday was around 68, and it felt like it….it's a nice, and very welcome, change of pace from the weather lately. That heat wave a few months back was just killer, and it makes working outside such a pain, so it's nice to have the more mundane weather like we've been…

So last night, I went to my first ever Red Hot Chili Peppers concert and had a blast. It was down in San Diego, and it started around 7:30PM, but I left real early so I wouldn't get caught in any traffic. I ended up going down the 5, and decided to stop at a YMCA that was on the way, because I had been there a long time ago. Back in…98 probably, Ben, Jeremy and I went to a YMCA in Encinitas because it had a skate park. We went down there and skated around for a few hours…