when the cold of the day moves over
and the warmth of the night moves in
there's a howling that sticks beneath my skin

so i try to stay warm and moving
but the silence is just too strong
like the bloom of the rose is sharp and long

shells of silver
this feels strange, as the closer we get to the grave
everybody wants love, but it's not enough,
to have a good heart, but it's not enough.

rage burns can't push it aside now
can't forgive this grudge is alive now
all the rage eats you up inside
can you leave it behind

what a surprise
you're fucked with again
it's a way of life you need to get over
all the rage just eats you alive
can you leave it behind

i don't know
where it'll end
the sun has set
and i can't be friends

i don't know if i can forgive
the day is long
but you were so dead wrong

–

http://open.spotify.com/track/0WPTB0PXgB6yHlnYfEmCrr

Well I get tied down when you cross my mind
Won't let me back in, but I won't stop trying
Tried to untie the knot but it's tied really tight
Oh, that knot in your heart when you left that night

'Cause love is like water and water gets rough
Had all I could stand but I can't get enough

Someone reminded me not to be reminded of you
'Cause everything's fine, God I wish it were true
And you run from me like I'm the edge of death
Honey, please stop running and catch your breath

'Cause love is…

I hope that our few remaining friends
give up on trying to save us
I hope we come out with a fail-safe plot
to piss off the dumb few that forgave us

I hope the fences we mended
fall down beneath their own weight
and I hope we hang on past the last exit
I hope it's already too late

and I hope the junkyard a few blocks from here
someday burns down
and I hope the rising black smoke carries me far away
and I never come back to this town again in my life

–

I hope I…

with the way that you
stare in my eyes

with the way that you
play with my mind

my heart
it's beating hard

all the days spent
wasting my time

i hate you
for making me
think you'd be mine

–

Doe Eye - I Hate You
http://open.spotify.com/track/2hz2NOhXudrixirXwpJU98

ett leende en lögn
en sommar som försvann
ett fall med öppna armar i allt vi någonsin ville ha
bönerna som reste sig
och bönerna som aldrig fick ett svar

I sången om oss fanns det inget kvar
i sången om oss
bara kackerlackor kvar
i sången om oss var vi redan glömda

en famn av onda blommor
en lek med krossat glas
en svärm av illusioner som långsamt tvingade oss ner
en hunger som slet i oss
en hunger efter mer och mer

I sången om oss fanns det inget kvar
i sången om oss
bara kackerlackor kvar
i…

there were nights and mornings
when you'd come to me
find your way into my bones
my joints and in my veins
like an animal you coiled your darkness around me
you used to spell your name in chalks all over my body

but these days…

there were summer days and nights
when i was blind to you
you were quiet and you were still
even when the moon was full
my temporary state of lightness would scare me
after all i was sure you were more strong than I was daring

but these days
i just walk with you…

She found pictures in my email
I sent this bitch a picture of my dick
I don't know what it is with females
But I'm not too good at that shit

See, I could have me a good girl
And still be addicted to them hood rats
And I just blame everything on you
At least you know that's what I'm good at

And I always find something wrong
You been putting up with my shit just way too long
I'm so gifted at finding what I don't like the most
So I think it's time for us to have…

IV

Du sökte en blomma
och fann en frukt.

Du sökte en källa
och fann ett hav.

Du sökte en kvinna
och fann en själ -
du är besviken.

–

Edith Södergran

You can fake it for a while
Bite your tongue and smile
Like every mother does an ugly child

But the stars are leaking out
Like spittle from a cloud
Amassed resentment counting ounce and pound

You're entertaining any doubt
Because you just have to know that I am fond of you
Fond of Y-O-U

But affections fade away
Do adults just learn to play
The most ridiculous, repulsive games?

You've had it in for me for so long
I don't know why and I don't care
Well, hardly anymore.

–

inspired by The Shins - Turn On Me