yesterday I was at Nils Landgren with friends' Christmas concert (Viktoria Tolstoy was wonderful, I have to listen to her more). it was so beautiful and I almost started crying. I haven't felt so christmasy for years, since like I had my first Christmas in Tanzania or something. and I realized that I have to go to concerts much more often. it gives such a kick! being The Burden's (only) groupie (a couple of friends' band) isn't enough. so now I've bought a ticket to Damien Rice's concert here in Stockholm in March. he seems to be popular. it says that there are only a few tickets left. and while I was at it, I checked out if there are any other concerts that would be nice to attend to. and like, the most irritating thing occured to me. Peter Bjorn and John, I saw them at the Popaganda festival last spring and they were great, and Moneybrother, who I've never really, like, loved but still, he's great to dance to, are playing the days before Christmas eve. but hey, I'm going to Finland over Christmas, so I'll miss them. and I feel so terrible for being sorry for that, because we're going to Finland to spend a last sad Christmas with my dying grandmother. her every breath could be her last. I feel that this Christmas won't be one of my coziest ones. luckily, I have Damien Rice in March to look forward to.